Ugh

it’s so frustrating. I’ve been gaining a stupid amount of weight too rapidly. No matter what I do I continue to gain. I went to the doctors and they told me it’s because my thyroid is having a hard time controlling my metabolism, cool! And it’s hard at home because when I mention my thyroid to my mom she always corrects me - “no Celena, your goiter. There’s nothing wrong with your thyroid. I have thyroid problems, YOU don’t.” well obviously I fucking do.
I have been exercising and eating healthy and also eating healthy snacks. It’s been over a month- and I’ve continued to gain weight?? like 2 pounds a fucking day it’s annoying.
The doctors want to take out my goiter and in turn also take out the side of my thyroid that my goiter is attached to. And then I will need to take medicine every single day for the rest of my life.
And I’m so conflicted because I don’t want any more major surgery I’m so sick of having to do stupid shit like this…
But I don’t feel in control of anything and I’m getting stupid unhealthy.

what is happening

Ilana + adoring Abbi
literally my favorite thing I love this hi I love you powerful-thighss

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I hate being at home

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realramonaflowers:

Hey stuff like this is actually really like. Borderline manipulative and it’s one thing to just have thoughts like “oh everyone gets tired of me and leaves and I wish they didn’t” but if you say things like this to friends especially if you’re in really serious relationships where one of you is being supported by the other (even if it’s mutual) that can be really manipulative and make people feel obligated to be your friend and not leave you and make promises they don’t want to and can’t keep and can be really really unhealthy for both of you

Like I understand feeling sad when friendships end but emotionally manipulating people into relationships is REALLY not cool even if you don’t realize you’re doing it, and it’s not just this post, there’s this whole mentality of like, co-dependent relationships are the MOST MEANINGFUL relationships and you have to be close FOREVER or it’s not real or whatever and that’s really unhealthy and toxic like please don’t

Everyone has the right to end friendships and leave relationships whether it’s a conscious decision or happens naturally over time. Relationships end. Let it happen, get over it. Please don’t depend on people because they are also people like you who need to have the autonomy to get out of bad situations or on a less serious level just do whatever the fuck they want with their lives

Your friends might make you feel special and less alone but they don’t EXIST SOLELY FOR THAT PURPOSE and they don’t owe it to you to stick with you forever, especially if you try to make them feel like they do

I needed this, thank you.

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problackgirl:

we’ve taught girls to romanticise nearly everything a boy does. when i was younger i thought it was cute that boys chased the girl even after she said no. i loved it when after a girl moved away from a kiss, the guy would pull her back and force it on. i thought a guy saying ‘i won’t take a no for an answer’ was passionate and romantic. we’re literally always teaching girls to romanticise abusive traits.

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