it’s so frustrating. I’ve been gaining a stupid amount of weight too rapidly. No matter what I do I continue to gain. I went to the doctors and they told me it’s because my thyroid is having a hard time controlling my metabolism, cool! And it’s hard at home because when I mention my thyroid to my mom she always corrects me - “no Celena, your goiter. There’s nothing wrong with your thyroid. I have thyroid problems, YOU don’t.” well obviously I fucking do.
I have been exercising and eating healthy and also eating healthy snacks. It’s been over a month- and I’ve continued to gain weight?? like 2 pounds a fucking day it’s annoying.
The doctors want to take out my goiter and in turn also take out the side of my thyroid that my goiter is attached to. And then I will need to take medicine every single day for the rest of my life.
And I’m so conflicted because I don’t want any more major surgery I’m so sick of having to do stupid shit like this…
But I don’t feel in control of anything and I’m getting stupid unhealthy.
what is happening
I hate being at home
we’ve taught girls to romanticise nearly everything a boy does. when i was younger i thought it was cute that boys chased the girl even after she said no. i loved it when after a girl moved away from a kiss, the guy would pull her back and force it on. i thought a guy saying ‘i won’t take a no for an answer’ was passionate and romantic. we’re literally always teaching girls to romanticise abusive traits.